Trial Periods (Side Effects)

I’ll come back to life when the sun kicks in
And i’ll wipe my eyes where the dark has been
And i’ll throw off the aches and pains that kept me pinned
Until it’s over
Until i’m headed back to fine again
Stabs hurt harder than words — sometimes
I try to keep that in mind
The pen is sharper than the words it writes
And the marks they leave fade in half as much time
Let’s drift away, and back, away, and back again
I’ve only lost enough just to hold on
I might look forward to relief but not the end
I’ve missed enough, just not all that went wrong
But earth to god, we’re running out of sun
And it’s far too long a trip back to square one
I’m pulling out of the dive I took
I’m unfamiliar, so tell me where to look
I’m hanging off the wall on it’s weakest hook
Until someone dares to tell me i’ve done good
The lack of words can clear your vision
Apologies are too far-fetched to try, but listen
So far, i’m broken, that’s a given
But i’m not the only one who’s lost my mind
I’ll pay through blood and sweat and tears much more than time somehow
Rest assured i’ve done my best to clear the haze
I’m only as upright as me fuel supplies allow
My blinds are shut since i’ve seen better days
But, earth to god, i’m asking you again
Could you turn the lights back on inside my head?
I’m pulling out of the dive I took
I’m unfamiliar, so tell me where to look
I’ll be straightening my hopes out under stacks of unused books
Until my fever-dreams are understood
I’ll come back to life when the sun kicks in
And i’ll wipe my eyes where the dark has been
And i’ll throw off the aches and pains that kept me pinned
So let’s start over
Until i’m headed back to fine again