Cure and Cause

Self obsessed, with a license to kill
In the land of the vipers and shills
Who think that their piety’s real
While their hitmen are firing at will
I hold my breath and I try to be still
Faint heartbeat’s the only life that I feel
A cheap imitation of life that’s real
The truth I’d die to be healed
I keep faint praise on the tip of my tongue
The blade designed to kill everyone
'Til the breath gets ripped from my lungs
Y’all gonna drink from this river of blood
It tastes good so we sip from a cup
Pass around like hits from a blunt
Our insistence this isn’t a drug
Ain’t gonna help us forget what we’ve done
I don’t know what to do, so I’m turning to you
On a wing, and a prayer, and the hope of a fool
I don’t know what to do, so I’m turning to you
I die to be healed and held, die to be healed and held by you
I’m somewhere in between it all
Somewhere in between it all
In between the cure and cause
In between the cure and cause
I’m somewhere in between it all
Somewhere in between it all
In between the cure and cause
In between the cure and cause
From my disease
Sick as I can be
Somewhere in between
Above and underneath
My disease
Sick as I can be
Somewhere in between
Opposing two extremes
To touch who I might’ve touched but can’t
Now they just rush through my hands
Now I’m like Jacob Marley trying to float
With these chains holding me down
For all my trespasses as a man
Mankind should’ve been my business
Instead of self-interest
Bottom lines and best intentions
All this time burning bridges and building temples
And never considered the penalty for my sins against you
When you stuck here, it’s like you never mattered
You’re just vapor, scattered
Fighting angels to get a better name
And then afterwards we see them all scaling Jacob’s ladder
Shame on my hubris
And shame on my pride
Shame on these lies
That I told countless times
Just to keep people in line
I got this long list of apologies to make
To those I said I loved when all I did was take
I brought 'em close like I wanted 'em to stay
And then I disappeared and left them harboring the shame
But I’m the one to blame
In this purgatory I made
It’s how the coward stays far from all the flames
So now I float away
Because somewhere between the cause and cure for pain
Is not a place for broken bodies to remain
I don’t know what to do, so I’m turning to you
On a wing, and a prayer, and the hope of a fool
I don’t know what to do, so I’m turning to you
I die to be healed and held, die to be healed and held by you
I’m somewhere in between it all
Somewhere in between it all
In between the cure and cause
In between the cure and cause
I’m somewhere in between it all
Somewhere in between it all
In between the cure and cause
In between the cure and cause
From my disease
Sick as I can be
Somewhere in between
Above and underneath
My disease
Sick as I can be
Somewhere in between
Opposing two extremes