Cut off at the Knees

Do you ever get the feeling that your life is not what it seems?
That it’s an endless cycle of fleeting pipe dreams?
All my expectations versus reality
Cut me cleanly at the knees
And instilled a sense of apathy
This compulsively unhappy world can get overbearing
Stare at the ceiling
I’m under siege of conflicting feelings
And I just want to feel happy
For more than five minutes at a time
Every now and then
'Cause sometimes I feel so inexplicably worthless
It’s so hard to feel a sense of direction or purpose
But the smallest of steps still at least gets me somewhere
Despite when I feel wholeheartedly that no one cares
And all the while I ask myself
Why do I keep on beating myself up for no reason?
Sometimes I feel so inexplicably worthless