Keep Going

Heard you on the phone last night
You were screaming
Later choking up some bile
By the toilet, kneeling
You didn’t tell me what was wrong
I didn’t bother asking
Now all I see in my head
Are the red lights flashing
Your mother called you up last night
She was screaming
As if you meant to break her heart
As if you owed her something
You said, «She don’t sound that fucked up
When she’s only been drinking»
Then you retreated back to bed
Calmly thinking
«Don't keep going if it hurts you
Don’t keep trying to do things you cannot do
She’ll exercise the blame
You know she’ll never change
You know that it’s no use
Don’t keep going if it hurts you»