I'm Fucking Alone

I spent the weekend with my family up in Michigan
Picking at words and trying not to think of her again
I tell myself I am normal and I am not too old to change
So many people in this world but no one’s what they seem
I don’t need you go away
But I need someone
But I don’t wanna go out and play
Cause I am no fun
I am living in loneliness it is fine
No one to deal with me a waste of time
I would love to connect with myself
Than it seems then anybody else
And I can’t believe, I am fucking alone
I will meet me tonight
I will treat myself right
And I will take me home
Where I can be together
And honestly I am fucking alone
Pick the toys from the shelf
In love with myself
Preteding hapily ever after
I go to the grocery and I know I am going to see her there (Stop)
Looking for hummus and I tell her I like her hair (Whore)
See a connection as we meet inside the bathroom stall
What was that porno because it didn’t happen that way at all
And I can’t get her out off my brain
I just need someone
Help me what am I again
So let’s have some fun
I thought
This time God damn I really wish it could
Reality is never the same I saw it in my mind
And I can’t believe
I am fucking alone
I will meet me tonight
I will treat myself right
And I will take me home
Where I can be together
And honestly I am fucking alone
Pick toys from the shelf
In love with myself
Preteding hapily ever after
I need somebody, not anybody
You owe me nothing, you are only fucking
I wish you love me, why don’t you love me
Ohh if only, I wasn’t lonely
I need somebody, not anybody
You owe me nothing, you are only fucking
I wish you love me, why don’t you love me
Ohh if only, I wasn’t lonely
It is so unhealthy
It’s narcissistic
I am co-dependent
It is so pathetic
And I can see now
That I am toxic
So let me be now
Or you will regret it
So let me be now
Or you will regret it
So let me be now
Or you will regret it
And I can’t believe
I am fucking alone
I will meet me tonight
I will treat myself right
And I will take me home
Where I can be together
And honestly I am fucking alone
Pick toys from the shelf
In love with myself
Preteding hapily ever after