Escape

I quit replying
I think I’ll quit trying
To pretend I’m buying
All the lies that are keeping me your whore
I’m living in limbo
I wonder where I will go
When I decide that I don’t wanna be here anymore
Only friends, I doubt it
I’m better off without it
Benefit that I don’t see
There’s nothing you can do with me
I’m sure it was real
The way I made you feel
But let us let the past just be
I think it’s time we set each other free
Don’t give a shit about what you do or say
I expect the worst from you
Why can’t I get away?
And I
Wonder when I’ll crack
I hope you have a heart attack
You’re thinking that your rack will bring me back
Just watch as I kick out the door
And I
Wonder when you’ll die
You were an apple of my eye
You mean it when you cry about the shit that you’re so sorry for
What exactly are you sorry for? (hey!)
I think
You need me
To petrify and string me
Control me and pull me closer to the plan that you have made
It’s your show so I’ll go
I’ll take my baby with me
We dance well
But I’ve forgotten all the reasons I have stayed
free, you wanted full control
You said no traps were made
As I revealed the troll!
And I
Wonder when I’ll crack
I hope you have a heart attack
You’re thinking that your rack will bring me back
Just watch as I kick out the door
And I
Wonder when you’ll die
You were an apple of my eye
You mean it when you cry about the shit that you’re so sorry for
What exactly are you sorry for? (hey!)
This takes me back, about five years ago
When I killed my old man!
I emerged from the water transformed and beautiful
I left him buried in the sand!
Seductive. Secure. Complacent. Controlling
Never even noticed my frown!
The last words I had for him are the last words I have for you
You drag me down, down, down, down
You drag me down!