Last Night's Trauma

The show went quiet
Can finally hear my thoughts
Nothing to drown them out
Architecture burning down
Is this the silence?
I can hear it all
Don’t want to see it all no
But I can feel it all
All of my secrets, they will never know
And Melancholy, she comes, she goes
Can’t say she’ll be gone forever
But for now she’s not stuck to me with a tether
Wish I could take my life away
So I could finally stop crying
I try to think of words to say
But my mind can’t find ‘em
If I’m not going to heal soon
Then what’s the point of me trying
And I don’t know who I am anymore
Because of last night’s trauma
This is my formal resignation
From who I was before
I retire this name
‘Cause this body ain’t mine anymore
Who I was is a memory I can never explain
The person in the mirror doesn’t look like me
But I’ll do about anything to forget all this strife
Try to make a puppet out of me; move to the afterlife
I can’t carry myself as long as you’re alive
‘Cause the memories resurface in the dead of the night
I’ve been lost to the trauma, just want to feel the daylight
How can this be my vessel if it don’t feel like mine?
Don’t wanna think about the last night
Don’t think I can ever just survive
Withering in the pavement of my dreams
Last night’s trauma is part of the regime
Don’t wanna think about the last night
Don’t think I can ever just survive
Withering in the pavement of my dreams
Last night’s trauma got me feeling everything
Last night, last night’s trauma
Last night’s trauma
Don’t wanna feel at all
Last night, last night’s trauma
Last night’s trauma
Don’t wanna feel at all
Last night, last night’s trauma
Last night’s trauma
Don’t wanna feel at all
Last night, last night’s trauma
Last night’s trauma
Don’t wanna feel at all
Where is Ginger going?
Melancholy will be back before we know it
Oh it could take a bit of time before she shows it
It’s been a long day and I can’t change
Everybody wanna tell me why it’s insane
I never know who I am
I never know who you are
I guess I can’t trust love
It only breaks my heart
‘Cause everyone’s on the ground and everybody has a frown
And I can’t be the one to save them all
Everybody wanna tell me, everybody wanna sell me on why I am nothing at all