Transparency

This torture has never left me so cold
Now I’m feeling like a ghost
And I’m trapped inside this hopeless hollow home
But where am I to go?
They said to learn from your mistakes
But I still can’t seem to figure it out
Why I’m always walking in my old footsteps
Pouring out all these secrets that I’ve kept
I am a disaster, I am an empty shell
How can I be living when everything feels like Hell
This is all too much for me to take
It’s like the world is at my throat
And it’s begging me to choke
Have mercy on my soul
I feel it feel it falling faster
But you leave for the aftermath
And now I’m alone
Lost in the unknown
I can’t stop thinking about this
Everything I used to do
Has lost all of its meaning
I’m just a selfish being
And I am so sorry
For everything I could not do
This is my apology for failing constantly
Falling endlessly
I can see the transparency
I couldn’t be there, I was always away
I tried to shut this out and leave it where it lays
I’m tired of this torture
All I’m face with is dismay
This is a final release for everything I couldn’t say
It’s like the world is at my throat
And it’s begging me to choke
Have mercy on my soul
I feel it feel it falling faster
But you leave for the aftermath
And now I’m alone
Lost in the unknown
Falling endlessly
I can see the transparency
Falling endlessly
I can see the transparency