Truant

tonight we just don’t give a fuck
so lets get another round
we come up just like the sun
and we go down when the night is done
a night I wont remember
with people I can’t forget
as we hit the fucking streets
I’m homesick for a place I’ve never been
I swear I’ll never sleep
I’ve found a short term solution
to a long standing problem
so if I drink and get high
while the world passes me by
I can still see the sky shine
when I close my eyes
forget about this life and try to find
a way to keep me blind
as we hit the fucking streets
I’m homesick for a place I’ve never been
and the
debauchery
is catching up with me
when you can’t look after yourself
how the fuck can anyone else?
step by step
I feel my feet loose their grip
on the streets that I grew up in
day by day
I feel myself fade away
what meant so much to me has changed
breath by breath
I feel the air leave my chest
and all I have to look back on is regret
this is the calm before the storm
this is the peace before the war
this is the bend before the break
these are all the things I could never say
I have no fear yet I am afraid
I cannot feel yet I am in pain
I feel asleep yet I am awake
I inhale love
and exhale hate.