Abuse Me

Lost inside my head, bleeding on the inside!
If you wanNa take a break, I think you’ve lost your mind
Cus I’ve been waiting I’ve been waiting for you all night!
Just for you to tear my heart out, fucking love me I-
Fuck you think you’re going? I can’t seem to grasp your time!
What the fuck? where you been? who’s been on your mind?
Cus I can’t seem to get attention almost always I…
Seem to play second place in the worst ways…
Tears up on my walls, fuck you think you meant to me?
I haven’t been thinking clearly, I can’t feel a thing!
You must’ve thought that it really fucking got to me
But I’ve been dead for a long time
I’m numb to you
I’ll catch you in my memories, just think of me
And maybe when we meet again; I will follow, lead
It’s not that I’ve been playing victim, I just wanna bleed
I wanted this from the start just ABUSE ME!
Shit fucking hurts
Nothing ever works
I can feel it in my veins
Why do i feel the pain still
Why do i crave these fucking pills
I need to make these dollar bills
Abuse me just to feel at all
Believed before now ill just fall
Apart
Everything i run from feels so close to me
Its dark
Every time i think about it i just freeze