So Many Times

Every person has a shield that covers from the crowd
Our life is a battlefield, all you need is to look around
When there’s nothing to believe
When there’s no one you can trust
Close your heart to keep this feeling inside us
Every morning I wake up
Many bad thoughts in my head
Bleeding heart wants just to stop
But I know it’s not the end
There is nothing I believe
There is no one I can trust
It’s not easy but I don’t want to give up
So many times I washed my hands
With blood of enemies and friends
But now I feel alone
And silence still surrounds me
So many times she held my hand
But I was too blind to understand
Redemption was my way
But now it lies behind me
You will ask once again
Is it possible to live…
…when there’s no one I can trust?
…when there’s nothing to believe?
You will never understand
The bitter way I live my life
There’s the only thing I know
This way keeps me alive