Curbside Goodbye

You’ve buried me here
And I can’t turn off my eyes, only sinking.
You’ve hidden the keys to sleep.
The sweet careful lines we’ve crossed
And now we never can go back.
This is what I felt, just being myself,
But I know that you wouldn’t stay.
Standing at my car with my reasons spent,
As you drove and made your escape.
The silence crushing me, like I swore it would,
And I’m left watching…
Red lights fading out
(I refuse to accept these excuses you’re making)
As you drive back to your house
(To save yourself from taking blame the only reason that you came at all).
I’m here sinking and now we never can go back.
I chose every word that I knew would hurt but that was a poor choice at best.
This weak disguise, your careless replies that you made at my expense.
You swore this was right,
It was better that you’re leaving but I’m here with…
Red lights fading out
(I refuse to accept these excuses you’re making)
As you drive back to your house
(To save yourself from taking blame the only reason that you came at all)
And I’m here with my curbside goodbye.
This sting in my eyes won’t leave me tonight
As I stay awake to watch the day start without you.
I’m here sinking, now we can never go back.
My foundation crippled and cracked.
Broken, severed, bleed out the hurt.
Two people dissolve into words.
Red lights fading out as you drive back to your house.
The way I’ve gone a hundred times before,
But now I’m left behind to make all of this make sense.
And now your voice is haunting me,
Just out of reach, it buries me.
Is this the better off that you meant?
The way I’ve gone a hundred times before,
But now I’m left behind to make all of this make sense.
And now your voice is haunting me,
Just out of reach, it buries me,
It buries me
I’m here sinking, we never can go back.