How Could I

I Don’t remember
How I felt before
Strong aversion
Painted on mirrors
Will I be freed
From these visions of horror
What’s the sense
Of all of this?
Who Will guide me?
These thoughts remain
Feed the pain
I still wonder why
How I got this far?
I saw fear in your eyes
And then I…
How could I?
Every morning
It’s staring at me
Whispering to me
A struggle within
I’m staring at myself
As if written on my face
No one should know
This uneasy feeling
All hell breaks loose
These thoughts remain
Feed the pain
I still wonder why
How I got this far?
I saw fear in your eyes
And then I…
How could I?
No, go away
No, go away
When I turn off the light
I can feel it, it wants to fight
Lord, my friends, anyone
I need your help, I didn’t choose this fate
I know I’m guilty
I’m not eluding
My due, I’ll pay
It won t leave me until I pass away
No, go away
No, go away
I can’t move on
I’m blinded by my rage
I shall never escape from this prison
Forever alone with my rage
These thoughts remain
Feed the pain
I still wonder why
How I got this far?
I saw fear in your eyes
And then I…
How could I?