Can't Lose

I said I’m locked up
Anxiety start creeping and it got me fucked up
They say I’m talking all the talk but I can’t walk up
That if you tryna be the boss you gotta boss up
Steady laid, 'cus life still fuck me up like every day
My momma told me everything’s a lesson
Just keep praying for a blessing
Lately feel like God don’t listen, really now I hardly pray
But wait, I never asked for nothing much
So I’m just tryna say that was I wrong for being human
Mistakes that I done made, redefine me as a nuisance
My life is a charade I’m getting tired of these illusions
Man it’s driving me insan, I numb the pain with medication
Trying not to give up, no tim to wallow in
My mishaps and fuck ups and no more heroin
Had a couple doses 'cus I needed serotonin
Paying all my dues, time’s the money that I’m owing
Still tryna win I can’t refuse
No a nigga cannot lose
Just wanna catch a cruise
Finna break all the rules
My heart, can’t take another day of feeling so damn bruised
So I’m still tryna win I can’t refuse
No a nigga cannot lose
Can’t Lose, kick it with the homies, no more booze
Can’t Lose, damn you gotta get up, gotta heal those wounds