Tidal Weight

Who would believe it?
I’m getting wise to my limit
And my memories, feel a bit cheated
There’s no solace in the uncertain life
I’m just a boy in the big shoulders
Who would imagine I
Could feel at home in a straitjacket?
But I get that tidal weight
Like whoa
Like I’ve felt every night
Alone
I’ve been confused so I’ve come away
Unfamiliar
I don’t want to say who
But I’m hoping they’ll speak soon
'Cause I’m desperate to leave my
Unsoiled tomb
And I get that tidal weight
Like whoa
Like I’ve felt every night
Alone
Can I be straight to myself? I say
I don’t know
I don’t wanna reach out
I don’t wanna
Can I breach the familiar mound?
I don’t wanna scare myself outright
Can I admit to myself at night?
Can I sleep more than a minute here?
Will I ever dream from my wounded heap?
Can I breathe without a pause
From all my tears that are hollow?
And I get that tidal weight
Like whoa
Like I felt every night
Alone
Can I be straight to myself? I say
I don’t know
Or will I help myself?
Whoa
I don’t know