Never Changed

Went through a real hard time in my life
Can’t say the same for the other side
Every game comes with a price yeah
And I ain’t talking bout' no best buy
Got to many tears coming out of my eyes
Heart broken for the first time
Big hole inside my chest
It’s filled with all regret
Yeah I had to hard reset
I couldn’t live my best
I feel like everyday is a change
It just hasn’t been the same
Waking up like I have on chains
Lockd up in this house all day
Wonderin' if it’s gonna rain
Them bars keep fucking up my brain
Feel lik it’s turning me insane
Got me fiending for a couple of days
Still haven’t changed my ways
I guess I am the same
But i’ve been trynna change
This shit is fucking lame
I still have these thoughts telling me
I should fucking kill myself
But I can’t listen to that shit
I got a kid to worry bout'
If I didn’t have a kid
Then I wouldn’t be here right now
I had nobody that ever wanted to show me how
Life was a game so I was saying coach take me out
I just kept running from all these problems
They chasing me now
Demons back on my shoulders betting i’ll take the easy way out
Every time I feel like i’m better life just keeps putting me down
Drugs are the only thing making me happy right now
Got too many things on my mind
I just keep numbing them down
And that’s the sad truth of it all
But you live and learn to evolve
I just don’t want you to every worry
About me that’s all yeah