Wean Off, Pt. 2

I need a wean off
4 am waking up and skipping Zoloft
I need a wean off
All this isolation gimme hard ons
I am not lonely
Honestly, I think I kinda love it here
I got my rocks off
I can’t take the emotions when the drugs were off
I need a wean-
I can’t write a rhyme without no stressing my head
I can’t get up in the morning without feeling my legs
That’s a pretty good reason why they all want me dead
Cause I got powder and some demons all inside of my head
I can see them smiling while I’m tearing apart
And tears make a ocean after breaking a heart
I don’t- I don’t need the medicines to be okay
Baby I’m dead inside cause of the Cupid’s dart
I need a wean off
4 am waking up and skipping Zoloft
I need a wean off
All this isolation gimme hard ons
I am not lonely
Honestly, I think I kinda love it here
I got my rocks off
I can’t take the emotions when the drugs were off
Emotions start depleting after losing your love
There’s so peace inside the head after losing the dove
Saw a therapist a week later I’m still having probs
And I can’t even freakin breath cause of the memories clogged
Spilling out some lyrics while I’m plucking guitars
How to fix my heart when there are million parts
Shattered in my skin feeling scaly and scummed tired of myself, wish I’d say I
was done
Now I’m so lost (I'm lost now)
Those touches and the kisses now imagining things I never dreamt of (yes I do
have dreams)
Skipping my pills as I’m losing my health
Don’t wanna live now (that's the only thing left)
The floor seems to suck me inside and I am happy
Cause I have nothing to lose now
That’s an excuse, wow
Maybe it’s time that I met god
Yeah
4 am waking up and skipping Zoloft
I need a wean off
All this isolation gimme hard ons
I am not lonely
Honestly, I think I kinda love it here
I got my rocks off
I can’t take the emotions when the drugs were off
Well I know I’m weird cause there is so much inside
Have multiple feeling which I barely hide
I’m living every moment just so you could suffice
Just like any other lover tries to sacrifice
His habits, his feelings
Is all what counts
You could be my queen where having me is your crown
But that’s more than just a joke cause now you’ve switched your boo
Now have him in your laps and tell him I wasn’t good
I need a wean off
I need a wean off
I need a wean off
I need a wean off, wean off
I need a
I remember all the whispers that you left in my ears
I remember the goodbye and so I left some tears
In my eyes, I can barely even move right now
Cause there is nothing really left so I can choose right now
I need a wean off
4 am waking up and skipping Zoloft
I need a wean off
All this isolation gimme hard ons
I am not lonely
Honestly, I think I kinda love it here
I got my rocks off
I can’t take the emotions when the drugs were off
Conversation
-Hello
-Hey, hello, I really hope you are doing well, you know I miss you so much,
I mean this is rude of me cause you know, you have a better half,
but wait wait
, what’s wrong with you’re voice, why are you crying
-He dumped me
-Oh I am sorry, I knew he wasn’t the right person to be with, you know,
I knew that, but… I'm sorry for you
-I miss you
-Yeah that was very obvious, I’m right outside you’re house honey,
don’t do me wrong this time, I love you, come outside