Still Here

Give me a pad and a pen, and I’ll let the lesson begin
The only way to survive my life is straight up livin' in sin
Keep on gettin' in where you fittin' in, but in case you get stuck
Better keep your piece off safety, you got these niggas fucked up
No matter how many times I get on my knees and pray, it don’t change
Duckin' bullets, and the woman I love keep playing games with my brain
Our relationship’s faded, I tried to save it
But now she living with a nigga named David
Lord, could you please have mercy on this soul of mine
And release the blanket 'cause at night it gets so cold sometimes
Tried to go from a life of crime, but see my hustle was hot
Keep a razor blade to chop up all my twenties and dimes on the spot
Oh yeah I came up in the church, Z-Ro know right from wrong
But I gotta hustle to keep on eatin', because my felony postpone
A nigga like me from gettin' a job, so how the fuck can I rest?
Sometimes I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here
I’ve been waitin' patiently
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
Niggas steady hatin' me
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
I’ve been waitin' patiently
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
Why have you forsaken me?
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed)
Now it’s 1999, the new millennium is upon us
HPD got new technology, they gon' get us if they want us
Under surveillance 24−7 up in this game, you can never tell
Laws can’t see nan one of dem OZ’s
But a snitch’ll provide the blind with braille
Letters to read, indeed they wanna see me in a pine box
You can tell I’m not havin' that at the moment I let my nine cock
Release it cause I’m furious, refuse to let 'em capture me
Can’t get me a little bit of rest because I know them hoes are after me
I signed a major deal, you can see my video on TV
Fuck cappin', I’d rather kick it with Shan-o, Boobie and DP
'Cause they never refuse my company when I show up at the do'
Sometimes a place where everybody knows my name is where I wanna go
Tell me do you know what they call me, 'cause you act like you ain’t heard of me
But you better be ready to die if somebody sent you here to murder me
22, with a motherfucking beer belly
Some say I’m an OG already because I’m still here
I’ve been waitin' patiently
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
Niggas steady hatin' me
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
I’ve been waitin' patiently
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
Why have you forsaken me?
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed)
I wonder if my niggas really love me sometimes
Would they give a fuck about Z-Ro if I couldn’t rhyme?
It’s just a thought in my mind, I’m so tired of working my muscle
I just came here to preach, didn’t give a fuck about a hustle
Nigga don’t get me wrong, I’ve been known to bleed blocks
Livin' on every local corner, on a first name basis with these cops
I’ve been locked up so many times, depressed and in jail
Ain’t got no free-world patnas that’ll make my bail
I can see it in the sky, it must be destiny for me to be insane
Feel the expression on my face, can’t you tell I’m in pain?
I try to repent cause that’s a privilege that was given to me
But when I talk to God it seem like he don’t listen to me
Cause I’ll be fienin' for mercy, no matter how many times I whine
I never get it when I want it, but it’s right on time
I can see the world again, from foggy weather to clear
But I still wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, cause I’m still here
I’ve been waitin' patiently
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, 'cause I’m still here)
Niggas steady hatin' me
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed 'cause I’m still here)
I’ve been waitin' patiently
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed 'cause I’m still here)
Why have you forsaken me?
(I wonder if a nigga’s really blessed, I’m still here)
Then, as I looked
I saw the door standing open in Heaven
And the same voice I had heard before that sounded like a mighty trumpet blast
spoke to me
And said
«Come up here
And I will show you what must happen in the future
But for right now …
I’m still here»