Waiting for a Punchline

It’s not just this scene
It’s everything I fight for
Believe in
And let it be destroyed
It’s not the words I sing
But the ones I left unsung
They keep me from complete insanity
But not obscurity
Well I’m glad no one knows me right now
And I could escape my thoughts
If all that I ignore won’t keep haunting me
Back down the fire escape
I can’t stay a minute long
These walls are closing
And I’m making up excuses again
Like maybe it’s you, not me
I’m often disappointed at myself
And people that I meet
And there’s a reason why I left
But not why I haven’t changed
What I’d envied for so long
Isn’t where I should belong
And for the first time in my life
I finally figured something out:
Fuck this place
These are my insecurities
Do I really belong here?
Can I really belong here?
I just wanted to sing along
Until these words don’t make sense anymore
'Cause don’t want to belong here
'Cause I’ve been defeated
Yeah, I’ve been defeated
Just need a place to get me down