I'm Not Ready

One more distraction to keep me from
Laying in the wake of my own destruction
And I wanted to believe that I’m better but I’m not
So it’s one more temporary love illusion
I don’t want to get in too deep
Making these promises I won’t keep
Just hold myself down steady
And hope I can sleep
When I dive
Into another bed
I’m so empty inside
Filling up on regret
If I’m honest with myself
I’m still terrified at best
I tried
I’ll admit
I’m not ready
Saw my reflection in someone
Couldn’t see it coming but I lost who I was
And I wanted to believe I was better off back then
But there’s a crack in the mirror and it left me broken
I don’t want to get in too deep
Making these promises I won’t keep
Just hold myself down steady
And hope I can sleep
When I dive
Into another bed
I’m so empty inside
Filling up on regret
If I’m honest with myself
I’m still terrified at best
I tried
I’ll admit
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I don’t want to get in too deep
Making these promises I won’t keep
Just hold myself down steady
Hope I can sleep
When I dive
Into another bed
I’m so empty inside
Filling up on regret
If I’m honest with myself
I’m still terrified at best
I tried
I’ll admit
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready
I’m not ready