Fateful Decoy

You’re leaving these secret wounds
To seal all your senses
You lost your empathy
All efforts forsaken
I find so hard to fear
The silence you gathered
What made you still seek for more
Give in and let go of me
I wish that you could bear with me
I wish not to hear you sigh
And how I wish I could pretend I’m grateful
Forgive me my calm good-bye
Tell me you waited for me
And tell me what for
Explain why your eyes look through me
I wish I knew what for
Allow me to close this chapter
No strings attached now
See how your words still hurt me
And feel how we lost our bond
I wish that you could bear with me
I wish not to hear you sigh
And how I wish I could pretend I’m grateful
Forgive me my calm good-bye
You scream at me and your eyes don’t recognize me anymore
I wonder what made you
Turn into what you were before
Tell me your guilt has ended
Pretend not to be afraid
Proclaim not to know about this
Whatever you touch is art
You may not believe in patience
But I know my time will come
Discover the doubts within me
And watch how I fall apart
I wish that you could forgive me
I wish not to hear you cry
And how I wish I could pretend I’m grateful
Instead of this grim disguise