Freer

I wrote this for us
In the hope that these words
Might say more than has already been said
Cause we both live in fear that after a year
I’m still stuck in yours
And you are still trapped in my head
It’s been harder than we ever imagined an ending to be
And all for the freedom I wanted to see
Freedom’s not all it’s cracked up to be
I’d feel freer if you were handcuffed to me
If we were joined at the hip by pins like Siamese twins
I’d feel freer if you were handcuffed to me
Because we all move on but we don’t all survive
Behind walls of freedom that kill us than keep us alive
It’s a hard climb and the rocks they are huge
Why do we opt for the struggle instead?
I wonder if I’d known I’d be this messed up
I’d have still packed my rucksack and climbed on ahead
I just want to tell you a face to a face
I think about you and the life I replaced
And all for the freedom I wanted to taste
Freedom’s just one fuckin' big waste of space
I’d feel freer if you were handcuffed to me
If we were joined at the hip by pins like Siamese twins
I’d feel freer if you were handcuffed to me
Because we all move on but we don’t all survive
Behind walls of freedom that kill us than keep us alive
I just want to tell you a face to a face
That I think about you all the time
And it’s the most difficult emotion that I’ve ever dealt with
Walking out on love and pretending I’m fine
I’d feel freer if you were handcuffed to me
If we were joined at the hip by pins like Siamese twins
I’d feel freer if you were handcuffed to me
Because we all move on but we don’t all survive
Behind walls of freedom that kill us than keep us alive