Wasted Words

Unloved, unnatural
Hate fills my heart I’m lost
On a path of self pity
Sheppard by fear of the way of the living
Scared to death
I wish I could, just break away
I wish I could, change how I think
I’m stuck in a rut
With demons on my back
They’re weighing me down
It feels like quicksand
So many times I’ve had the strength to end it
So many times I’ve been too weak to make a decision
But my anxiety has the best of me
Adrenaline, never lets me sleep
This is, where I say goodbye
To everyone, in my life
A suicide note
Filled with hate
I sink below with the dead
At least I’m among friends
I sink, below