Meaningless

How do I keep my head in this
When all the light goes dark in the end
Am I comfortable or complacent
I can’t wrap my head around it
Will I ever stand and face it
Or am I just scared to death
Malice or melancholy
Anger or apathy
Emotions that are always within reach
Refusing to confront what lies beneath
Skin deep
I’ve got to fill this void within me
Does my place in this world mean anything
Am I a ripple on the water
In a current getting stronger
Or is this a test
A true test of nothingness
How do I keep my head in this
When all the light goes dark in the end
When all this gorgeous is shallow
This home feels so hollow
Is this meaning meaningless
I walk this world unatoned and alone
Terrified of what comes at the end
Of the road
When they carve my name in stone
Is the cost really adding up
Do I deserve to die feeling loved
Will this torment right my wrongs
Will this suffering be enough