I Was Once an Extrovert

Sleeping on the floor again
Going through the motions in my head
Thinking about the past again
Wanna watch the seasons change
I can’t
Used to adore the autumn leaves
You used to adore me
We grow up and we learn lessons
We just wanted to have passion
Used to think I was looking for a fire
And then I lost all desire
Thought that it would light the dark
Make my demons cower
I wish you would’ve never seen
The self-centered side of me
Just all the pages of the songs I wrote for you
I just want to get high
Tell stories like leaves do
You would understand
But I never took time
To let the smoke clear from my bedroom
I didn’t care enough to hide
Used to think I was looking for a fire
And then I lost all desire
Thought that it would light the dark
Make my demons cower
I wish you would’ve never seen
The self-centered side of me
Just all the pages of the songs I wrote for you
I saw my past
In the middle of the night
A dark deathly hand
Searching through my mind
All the words I spoke
Were haunting all my dreams
I never meant for you to forget me