Blue Goodbye / Whole

There comes a time when it’s dark and the skies are grey
One shade of black, and the light is so far away
Never did I think I’d be standing over your grave
As I’m parking away the pain
More than partially in my veins
I’m a, try not to shed a tear tonight
Shed them in the morning when I then remember this is real
Angry at myself for feeling the way I feel
Then I turn to God with this anger, when will it heal?
Why did you have to take them away?
Why do you have me standing not understanding
The reason they couldn’t stay? -Lord
Did you never hear me pray Lord?
Enough times, did you never hear me say Lord?
And the thought that I’ll never see you again
Hollow
Burning on the inside, they try to console me
Awkward silences are so deafening
Death is so definite
I know I need faith, but fear wants to control me
Everyday I’m waking up tired
I’m tired of waking up just to cry
They told me that death is a part of life
Then why does none of this make a drop of sense
Innocence, stripped away from me
Solitude immense, leave me be
I hate you for taking this love away from me
I can’t lie —
I Shouldn’t be considering suicide
But I wasn’t ready for a blue goodbye
Now the time has
Come to say farewell, tonight
Nothing left to say
No more tears to cry
Here’s my blue goodbye
Alpha and omega I be
You already know that there is no one like me
I place the u in purpose, See the I in pain
We are the us in trust, my timings never change
My blood never tainted, perfect and able
I kept you through darker days
So don’t you forget my name
More than able to level mountains
Sky high, these lands becoming planes
I love you, it hurts me every time I see you cry
But even my son had to die
He died the death so he could give you life
And everyone that you’ve lost
Living in me can watch the son rise, brighter lights
But see me empathizing with your tears
And the heavy sorrow cold over you soul — to make it clear
Already see me holding you from yesterday
Arms around your heart as I’m whispering ‘it will be okay!"
Now the time has
Come to say farewell, tonight
Nothing left to say
No more tears to cry
Here’s my blue goodbye
Whole
Have you ever had an epiphany?
That this hole we find ourselves in is needed to find ourselves
To keep us from resting our souls on the temporary
Have you ever had an epiphany?
That maybe all of this pain and heartbreak is all part of the plan
That the hate of your skin tone, a call on your mobile phone can eradicate all
the fame of Hermit Road
Life’s a beach man, especially when the foundation is on grains of sand that
continue to pour inside the egg timer that we call grace
What if I told you to keep digging?
You do know they find the rawest materials closer to the core of the earth
This hole can reveal whats really inside of you
Because from birth we’ve been broken, from birth we’ve been searching
Searching for an element to fill this crucible that we call life
Careers, marriage, fame, money all bow down to this love thats produced the
reason we exist
This hole that we’re in lets the soul know that we’re missing a piece,
we’re missing peace that makes us whole
Only in Him can you find it
Converse with the father and you can realise it
That Hermit road is just another avenue to a greater path
That these blue goodbyes in a weird way keep your eyes on God
Let this pain draw you closer to him
Like prayers in Gethsemene
That good mourning, that good grief
A grief thats reflected in the pain of our Father
Who took the original intention for us
Who are we that He is worthy of us?
Giving His life for us
Dying on the cross for us
You know, rock bottom doesn’t feel so bad when you know the rock is present
Feel His presence, in this hole
And this hole can only be filled by the love of Christ
Only then can we understand that we were complete this whole time
Only then can we see that we’re the Mona Lisa of his eye
Only then can we become whole