Suicide

By David Allan Coe
STANDING IN THE BATHROOM WITH A GUN IN MY HAND
PULLING ON THE TRIGGER JUST AS FAST AS I CAN
I CAN HEAR HER SCREAM AS SHE REACHES FOR THE LOVER BESIDE HER
MARRIED BY THE BIBLE SHE WAS ONLY SIXTEEN
I WAS FRESH FROM PRISON TRYING TO FOLLOW MY DREAM
WHO’D EVER THOUGHT ID BE THE JUDGE AND THE JURY THAT TRIED HER?
BLOOD SPLATTERED ALL OVER THE WALL
THE GUN STILL SMOKING AS I WATCH IT FALL
I RUN THROUGH THE DOOR WHILE THE SIRENS BLOW OUT ON THE HIGHWAY
MAYBE THEY’LL CATCH ME AND MAYBE THEY WONT
IT REALLY DOESN’T MATTER I JUST HAD TO DO THINGS MY WAY
YEAH YEAH
I MIGHT JUST COMMIT SUICIDE
YEAH YEAH
HE’S THE ONLY MAN THAT I TRUSTED WITH MY LIFE
I CANT UNDERSTAND WHY HE RAN OFF WITH MY WIFE
NOW THAT THEY’RE DEAD WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN TO THE BABY?
THE STATE WILL HAVE TO RAISE HER JUST THE WAY THEY DID ME
HER MOTHER WANTED FREEDOM AND I JUST SET HER FREE
SHE SHOULD HAVE NEVER LET ME SEE THAT SHE WAS NO LONGER A LADY
SHE CALLED OUT MY NAME JUST BEFORE SHE DIED
SHE SWORE SHE LOVED ME AND I ALMOST CRIED
WITH TREMBLING HANDS I REACHED OUT AND TRIED TO SAVE HER
CHEATING IS SOMETHING I CAN UNDERSTAND
BUT NOT WHEN ITS CHEATING WITH MY BEST FRIEND
SHE BETRAYED THE LOVE AND THE BABY I GAVE HER