Violet Efforts

So many things unnoticed
Signs that were there all the time
I simply wasn’t listening
‘Cause my love for you made me deaf
To what you needed
I had no idea what you went through
But still acted like I had every right
To ask something from you
But it’s not how it’s supposed to be
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
I try to recreate the image of my bright past
But the more I try, the more hopeless my effort seems
Why do I have to hold on to the memory
Of how great things were
While you were there?
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
I got so much
But kept complaining ‘cause I desired more
I got so much
Why didn’t I appreciate it all?
I imagined it differently
And that’s the problem — I keep imagining things
We’re not ready to start anew
Under unchanged circumstances
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra
If I look back, I am lost
On and on it spins in my brain like a mantra