Russian Roulette

Take a breath,
Take it deep,
Calm yourself,
He says to me,
If you play,
You play for keeps,
Take the gun,
And count to three.
I’m sweating now,
Moving slow,
No time to think,
No time to go,
And you can see my heart,
Beating,
You can see it through my chest,
Said I’m terrified,
But I’m not leaving,
I know that I must pass this test,
So just pull the trigger (trigger)
Say a prayer,
To yourself,
He says 'close your eyes',
Sometimes it helps,
And then I give,
A scary thought,
That he’s here,
Means he’s never lost