Rock Bottom

If you knew what I thought
Swear you wouldn’t notice blue skies
Everything is clouded by
My reality, this loss
I can’t get up and try
Seein' blurry, losing sight
I can’t save myself, rock bottom’s taken everything
Hate askin' for help, but pride is the enemy
Hate days that feel the same
Livin' in the cycle, wait for life to rearrange
Wanna find me a better place
Fire for survival can’t channel all my rage
Like what the fuck, who am I?
Breaking everything inside every person I despise
Oh, self destruct in five, losing my fucking mind (Just a matter of time)
Broke up with my girl, then I cut off all my friends
They probably think I’m fake, well fuck 'em, can’t pretend
I been on the edge slowly losin' my sense
Takin' all these meds tryna get my fix
I’m tired of opinions, I don’t wanna listen
Suck on my dick, you’re just clouding my vision
In my business, I need my own space
Everybody in my ear, can’t think straight
So I take a whole eighth, can’t feel my face
If I never come down, know that I’m okay
This is how I deal with pain in today’s age
Twistin' tornados, bitch, goin' Super Saiyan
If you knew what I thought
Swear you wouldn’t notice blue skies
Everything is clouded by
My reality, this loss
I can’t get up and try
Seein' blurry, losing sight
I can’t save myself, rock bottom’s taken everything
Hate askin' for help, but pride is the enemy
Night’s starting to fade out
If a nigga black know this shit is goin' down, down
No I don’t want a face off, baby
Black on my hip and it stays off safety
In case a nigga wanna face off, no Travolta
Different when you see my face on a local poster
Different when that nigga Pop said you want me closer
I’ll allow it for the night, but when I am sober
Black shirt, slacks, white tie, all business
It’s back to the city with that bitch, good riddance
The kid with a knuckle tied to his back, can’t miss him
And niggas tryna rap know that they can’t diss him
It’s way too crazy
I live life with my dogs and we dog them ladies
This is for my safety
I’ma do what I can so a nigga can’t save me
I can’t save myself, bottom’s taken everything
Hate askin' for help, but pride is the enemy
I can’t save myself, rock bottom’s taken everything
Hate askin' for help, but pride is the enemy