Dear Angels

Youngest of your boys, I was your longest nine
Whenever I need a shoulder you’re never hard to find
You always shine, you are my light when its dark
We had it all I still can’t believe it fell apart
House bigger than it ever was
It shoulda lasted but it never does
Your desire for the finer things
You got me used to Benzes and designer things
2010, that divorce I thought was gonna kill me
I got past it now, I understand love ain’t easy
Don’t get sad, you are my strength, you are my wing
This is my song for you, you are my everything
Mama, I really love you
I don’t think you know just
Just how much I love you
I said mama, I really love you
I know sometimes it’s painful
But you are my angel
You always loved us even with the trouble we got into
Always support me it don’t matter what kinda shit I’m into
You always send an I love you for me to wake up on
You always slaying even when you got no make up on
You so successful but the beauty lies within the soul
Saving lives can be hectic but you take control
The epitome of a strong black woman
You been through hell
Like how the hell could you bounce back from it? Yeah
You know me better than I know my fucking self
You got where you wanted to be and didn’t need no fucking help
They seen your face on the TV and we was crying for some help
You lost your son I’m so sorry for the cards you were dealt, yeah
(Rest in peace)
Bond stronger than it ever was
It shouldn’t hurt but it always does
Ryan, you are my heart, you are the king
This is my song for you, you are my everything
Ryan, I really miss you
Damn I really miss you
And I really hope you
Are okay, where
Wherever you are, yeah
And even though it’s painful
You’ll always be my angel
You shining down, shining down, shining down on me
You shining down, shining down, shining down on me
(Just keep on)
Keep shining down, shining down on me
Keep shining down, shining down, shining down on me
Mama, I really love you
I don’t think you know just
Just how much I love you
I said mama, I really love you
I know sometimes it’s painful
But you are my angel
I just, I wanna say thank you
For giving me the chance
To know somebody like you
To love somebody like you
To have somebody like you
Ryan, I really miss you
Damn I really miss you
And I really hope you
Are okay, where
Wherever you are, yeah
And even though it’s painful
You’ll always be my angel