Hikikomori

My Dad told me each love will be different
My Dad told me each love will be good
But my Dad’s never had a broken heart
Because my Dad’s got my Mum
I’m too scared to fall in love again
I’ll just focus on my family, my art and my friends
I’m too scared to fall in love again
I’ll just focus on anything else
I want to be academic, confident and romantic
But I just feel weird and over-dramatic
Daily reminders that I am pathetic
When you’re surrounded by it, it’s hard to forget it
I see your straight faces in the magazines
The ones I used to read when I was thirteen
Now I can’t sleep from all these flashbacks
Caravans and guys in bands and polystyrene hands
Everything I had I seem to have lost
Everyone who loved me seems to have forgot
Everything I want seems too far away
I’ll just stay in bed for another day
Hikikomori
Hikikomori