Alone

It’s a memory of fantasy of living life for the first time
Something that burns in me I can’t see cuz it’s on my mind
It’s really quite simple but it’s really not simple at all
Immuned to all this pain and it’s the reason I fall
I’m losing friends left and right and then only left again
I’m still losing friends how can I love it when I can’t love myself
forgetting everything I’ve been and I’m
tearing through life that I don’t want to live
just to see this god-forsaken life is tearing a hole thru me
and I can’t remember when I felt a little bit of love holding my hand
and if I seen it I’d never believe it I’m all
alone again love is a little bit hold my hand
love is a love I don’t want to pretend
my angry and broken heart is so full of words that I forget to say
so I give back my hate to all that want
to talk about the God that they love so much
but they never going to change and the church’s doors are open unless
you’re searching for God God is only
found behind the doors of a searching heart
and I can’t remember when I felt a little bit of love holding my hand
and if I seen it I’d never believe it I’m all
alone again love is a little bit hold my hand
love is a love I don’t want to pretend
It’s so hard to make myself believe that someone cares
and all the suffering breaks me up again
life so unfair I know I believe this lie that
I’m going to be all right it’s all in my head
this hate inside of me is now it’s
blinding me to this blood that I have bled
and days will come when I only want to die to kill this pain I
search my heart for love but I
can’t find enough for me to feel anything