Sometimes I Can't Hear Myself Think

Had another dark thought
Bet I fuckin' swallowed it whole
Rampant runnin' through my veins
Sick of my back against the wall
Feelin' hollow like an empty shell
If I crack I don’t know what’ll happen
I’m screaming but you don’t even hear me
Keep it in until I lose my shit
But I know my efforts are vapid
Not another second goes by it doesn’t bother me
Shovel up some seconds while you choke on your shattered teeth
Nothing is enough when you miss the stars you shot for
How long is this bruise gonna hurt for?
Apply some ice and maybe you’ll calm down
Just know that it’s temporary, lost and found
But until then I’ll carry dust on the shelf
And try my bst to keep from killing myself
I know that’s dark, I promise I’ll be okay
I just gotta vnt before I lose my way
I’m usually a bug that makes the people grossed out
But sometimes I’m a god and everything works out
Writhing on the floor again
Little homemade rehab
Fuck, I’m growing scared of my dreams
Swear they’ve been the worst I’ve ever had
Keep on wondering how a shotgun tastes
Fade to black, an overreaction
I think about it all of the time now
I don’t wanna be the one that bites it
The shame, I don’t want the attention
Fingers sweating bullets just to taunt me I’m all alone
Scrolling through the names that surely wouldn’t pick up the phone
Nothing is enough when you trip and fall through the floor
How long is this bruise gonna hurt for?
Apply some ice and maybe you’ll calm down
Just know that it’s temporary, lost and found
But until then I’ll carry dust on the shelf
And try my best to keep from killing myself
I know that’s dark, I promise I’ll be okay
I just gotta vent before I lose my way
I’m usually a bug that makes the people grossed out
But sometimes I’m a god and everything works out
(Everything works out)