Change Of Heart

That’s what I really learned in college to talk
with confidence at parties about things I don’t know
And to act like I’m a rich man when my net worth is actually pretty low
And to never be a fool
To never fall into cliche
To never take my feelings seriously
To know what not to say
So I would never write a love song
I would never speak in rhyme
I would never sing my feelings for a girl in three quarter time
I would never hit a high note followed by a pregnant pause
And I’d never ever ever let myself believe the cause could be love, love, love,
love
Am I a man or just an __ with a good degree?
Am I a man or just an infantilized boy in an expensive t-shirt?
When I began to think I was better than Armado and his cliched love songs
No I would never sigh or swoon or ever be a love-lorn fool
I am too aware of irony
That’s what we learned in school
But now I see the life I tried to buttress with that learning
There’s a trophy wife and a soul-killing job all to justify your earnings
What I really learned in college to care too much what people say
To use my words to mock or hide behind and never give myself away
But I look at her and wonder why we try to live sequestered
Did I think my heart would listen to my mind and be unpestered by love
Maybe I’m having a change of heart, sweet Rosaline
I don’t wanna play the part that I was given
You turn every cliche to art
It’s like I never knew the words before
Yes, I will write for you a sonnet and my verse will not be free
I will leave my heart upon it in a cliche minor key
Cuz she makes each cliche true and now my heart is in her hands
My heart’s on fire
My heart’s an open book
My heart is on my sleeve
She warms the cockles of my heart
I don’t know what the f that means
Well I will love right
Sigh, pray, __ and groan
She makes me want to sing
I’ll sing every day
It’s like she makes everything into a cliche
My love, you make me feel like a king
(Not my best friend the king, but a proverbial king)
You make me think about wedding rings and lots of bling and other things
And love, love, love, love
I’m having a change of heart.