Waking Up Early

I wake at one o’clock
I see the morning sky
It’s dark
Every time I talk
There’s pains inside my jaw
It hurts
Of all the times I try
I see your natural eyes
I cry
And I don’t mean to whine
But when I try to live
I die
I always die
And I know I’ve done a lot this time
Just please don’t forgive me
Just know that I apologize
And I know I’ve gone too far this time
Just don’t understand it
Just know that I’m still on your side
Breathe a staggered breath
There’s ashes in my chest
It’s hot
Run fingers through my hair
But I feel nothing there
It’s gone
Never shed a tear
Hope for a better year
And try to live
I’m running out of cheer
The end is probably near
I’m sorry charlie
I didn’t mean to party
And I know I’ve done a lot this time
So please don’t forgive me
Just know that I apologize
And I know I’ve gone too far this time
Just don’t understand it
Just know that I’m still on your side
And I know I’ve done a lot this time
Just don’t understand it
Just know that I’m still on your side
And I know I’ve gone too far this time
Just don’t understand it
Just know that I apologize
(Are we good?)