Joan, I'm Disappearing

It turned to shit
On April 18th
You were home on the stairs with an old cup of tea
And your head weighed heavy in your hands
All the trouble with your sleeping
From the hall I could hear your breathing
Restless under blinding lights
A fool
I fenced our love into a rut
And I have no defence
For how we go abed
I should have begged for you to stay
Joan
I’ve loved you since I was seventeen
And I am lost without you
At first I didn’t feel but now I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I sit here for days
In my air conditioned cage
And given the year
It’s unlikely I’ll ever change
Oh you were right
I fenced our love into a rut
And I have no defence
For how we go abed
I should have begged for you to stay
Joan
I’ve loved you since I was seventeen
And I am lost without you
At first I didn’t feel but now I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing
I’m disappearing