Never Good Enough

Here I am, once again
Way too close to the edge
Terrified, open eyes
I’m seeing red
I would rather die tonight
Then let you down one more time
One more time
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I’m never good, never good enough
Demonize, criticize
Your words eat me alive
Just like knives
Tearing me from the inside
What you want I’ll never be
Why can’t you just be proud of me
Proud of me
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I’m never good, never good enough
I hate to disappoint you but it’s in my DNA
Everything you give me I somehow will disgrace
I never meant to be like this
A grave mistake you can’t forgive
A filthy stain, oh what a shame
Can you just wash me away
Sick of coming undone
Letting down everyone
Mediocre at best
Maybe better off dead
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I’m never good, never good enough