So Close

You put my heart in a cage
I’m not walkin' away
We’re so close
Yet so far
I’m reachin' out to your hands
Only you understand
We’re so close
Yet so far
We’re so close but so far at the same time
Wish I could give you all of me but I can’t write
Now I’ve been feelin' some type of way
How you gonna make me feel like I’m gonna drown
In my tears that I cry every night
You said that you was gon' be my ride or die for life
But you ain’t, and you painted the picture I couldn’t see
The colors faded, wasn’t meant to be
You used to mean the world to me
Used to be my world and everything and more
I just wanna be the one that you adore
But you was just goin' out and you was explorin' other worlds
Yeah, concepts that I just can’t grasp
Guess I was just never up for the task, but I laughed
And I reflect on the past
'cause I can do much better than that
So we gotta go with that
You put my heart in a cage
I’m not walkin' away
We’re so close
Yet so far
I’m reachin' out to your hands
Only you understand
We’re so close
Yet so far
It’s quite apparent
That you don’t feel real pain until you lose a parent
And ever since my father died
It’s been feelin' really hard inside
My heart aches when I think about it
'cause there were things I didn’t understand
I thought he was okay with what he had
I know why this shit is so profound now
I have to try to keep my subscription to SoundCloud
But this ain’t like some other shit I’ve struggled with
'cause this is grief, you better believe that this ain’t something with postives
Shit I feel like an electron
Don’t let me get wrong
But everybody needs a sad song
Not to mention, we all need a father figure
And I don’t have one so that honestly makes my problems bigger
So I’m against 11/19
And from now on, I will always be fighting
You put my heart in a cage
I’m not walkin' away
We’re so close
Yet so far
I’m reachin' out to your hands
Only you understand
We’re so close
Yet so far
Rest in peace