This Present Darkness

In this present darkness
I fall
Fall upon broken knees
Crawl through weight of depression
Haunted by an unborn ghost
I’ll never know your fears
Never see me in your eyes
Curse the one that stole your name from me
This is the monster that
They create
Scratch through the underside
The underside of this darkness
From seconds of your conception
Minutes leading your death
Sentence will shackle me
And turn eyes red
I will constantly endure
The pain of its creation
How can I lie awake?
Grace
At night I lie awake
How can I lie awake?
My love will stay dead
In this present darkness
I fall