udontknowme (Interlude)

Yeah
You don’t fucking know me
Yeah
You don’t fucking know me
The fuck you think you are?
Third coffee today
Cause I need to feel awake
It’s been 3 weeks since
I’m not sleeping in my own bed
You wanna read me like a book
But I don’t think you could
You gotta go though some shit
Before you know the truth
Cause I’ve been anxious
Escaping from these vicious
Thoughts of mine
That make me lie
About me wanting to die
My doctor says
«Have faith, everything will be alright»
While I’m losing my time
And all these minutes
Are passing by
My mom was never there
She rathred drinking, yeah
Sometims I see her in me
And I start panicking
Am I losing me?
Am I the enemy?
Should I ask for pills
To avoid another catastrophe?
I didn’t see the streets
Until I grew up, nah
I’ve been battling some demons
Since I was nine, yeah
And it’s heavy, sad and
Frustrating but it’s all mine
And it’s bullshit that
Happens thought life
That makes you shine
Sometimes I think that RIP
Is VIP for losers
And then I see
That if I leave
All this suffer
Would be a blooper
I realized I needed help
Cause I was screwed up
And would you take the chance
If they could give it to you? Would ya?
Cause I was scared as fuck
And I was blind I had to see it man, yeah
And I was dumb and I still am
But thanks god
This is a better place to start, yeah
I don’t find my north
My mind is on rest
I numbed with sex
And free cigarettes
I’m trying my best
Not dating
I don’t really want a new ex, yes
And that’s on being reckless
You become meanles
And can anyone tell me
Who the fucking hell cares?
Fuck em
I’m testing my patience
With new drama, mama
I’m tired of fighting ghosts
I thing I’m gonna, yeah
Delete my socials
Lay and think about
All my traumas
And maybe I see the light
Or end it all
Who knows man?