A Lesser Rate

Oh I can relate
To all of those things you said about life’s little ugly things
But I never thought I’d have to
I didn’t wanna know
Just what it’d feel like to lose focus on this frequency
And I’ll drown in my dishonesty
And I’m laughing now, hysterically because I should be further than I am
We’re setting up to fall at a lesser rate
And what can I say when I do the opposite of what’s always been good for me?
I don’t show it when I mean it
And I’m all of those things which I won’t own up to:
I show no common f*cking decency and it’s never made no sense to me
I’m in a bathroom thinking horribly
Because I should be further than I am
And I spent all money to get to sleep
But when I die in dreams I don’t wake up