Thoughts

I keep on pacing up and down the room
And I keep looking at this fucking rope
My momma text me saying see you soon
But will I make it I don’t know
I don’t wanna die but I also don’t wanna hurt
I found a pot of gold but still feel like I need to search
Success ain’t everything that I assumed
Cause I feel lonely in these crowed rooms
I can’t even tell if its plastic or its real
The love me but I feel inadequate still
I mean I try to stay focused and ignore it but the pressure will build
Would be ashamed if I dont setup my kids
I mean I’m booming right now how long is my reign gone last
Feel like I’m wrong step away from the same old cass
I don’t wanna go back, we move forward but I
Don’t have all the energy
Especially when friends busy siding with enemies
Thought you knew better than all these made up analogies
How could I be happy with everybody is mad at
Me
You can tell I’m lonely by all these memes in my gallery
Busy burning bridges when I should burning calories
Wishing that we all all came with rechargeable battery
Wanna end it all but I gadda think of my family
So now I’m forced to smile with nighas like scoop
Who dont love me like he that he do
I can see it in the way that they move
Nights do you False and say they living they truth
Ohhh you’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
They only love you when you’re gone
Who got receipts for what a pray do
Yo let me forward that, let me know that I’m unbreakable
Uh yo synce folder, let me know how much it ate at you
Uh come see my plate and all the shot they made me cater to
Ain’t aint no space for you cause I done been confined to it
Aint nothing perfect like my vessel if I fine tune it
Man I been thirsty than a batch been Trina find fluid
I got a waterfall to find out that it’s diluted
I see the sun inside my son so I been super shaded but illuminated
Can’t do the cell so I went super saiyan
My neo soul can make it through the matrix
Woah woah, clear through my basement I been fumigating
This shit for me bugging
Uh
Im still a slave I got a noose inside my stomach
Uh
My free shackles turn to jury for the function
My self destruction look like sumn sumn sumn uh
And I fear God but tell the devil he should run it up
Your inner beauty never paid you truth is ugly huh?
I’m so confused I see the darkness when the sun is up
Yo tell the truth, when we meet up you just see money huh
It’s been a minute since I felt Inlove
Been soul searching I been meaning to tell
Was unavailable Needed my help
I convinced the whole world to believe me, when I dont even believe in myself
I’m not as honest as you think I am
I’m just as filtered as your Instagram
I mean I’m really me but with a bit or trickery
I dont trust a soul im like Mr bean shhh
My spirit is the reason people look up sorta like listerine
Scratch beneath the surface
No matter how I word
Could never tell the truth to my fans they think im perfect
I know I’m real and I know I’m fake
Don’t know many fate but I know my faith
Trying to control my pace
Believe in God and the pearly gates
So if I die I hope my soul you take
I know that heaven is a stretch but im hoping that you’ll hold my place
I know I’ll make it though I made mistakes
Father protect me
When I walk through shadow of the valley of death
With no fear of the darkness though im hearing the threat