Talking to Myself

When I’m bored
I get drunk and I smoke cigarettes
Pretend my life’s worse than it is
And feel sorry for myself
When I’m bored
I text anyone who will text me back
Cause I want attention to want it bad
But it’s not enough to help
I guess there’s something wrong with me
Think everybody sees it too
Cause I’m the biggest hypocrite I’ve ever met
Yeah I’m a little sick of waking up like this
It’s hard to be alone
When I don’t really like me
I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely
Oh I’m scared of where I‘ll go
If I don’t say the right things
Cause I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely
Now I’m here
And I’m just drinking more alcohol
Only way I can deal with it all
Cause I can’t do face to face
You would think
That I’d open up to someone who
Wants to love me but I’d rather choose
To push them far away
Cause I don’t know if I’ll change
There’s something wrong with me
Think everybody sees it too
Cause I’m the biggest hypocrite I’ve ever met
Yeah I’m a little sick of waking up like this
It’s hard to be alone
When I don’t really like me
I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely
Oh I’m scared of where I‘ll go
If I don’t say the right things
Cause I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely