Elysian Fields

You always swore to me you’d only admire the sky from afar
(Rather than leave)
With the clouds beyond the moon and stars
Up there is such an empty place
So open and vague and the fact that it gave you hope
It showed on your face
Now it’s so real to me
Were you so lost in emptiness that hope became a foreign phrase
Diluted and forgotten in the endless daze
I never knew how much hate a heart could hold
A constant obsession with death and depression marked you astray
Took you away but I still feel your loneliness like everyday in the worst way
I’m drowning in the thoughts and the memories
I’m sinking in your absence, in your passing
I found you in a room saying words I thought you never meant
Quite the sight for sore eyes isn’t it
Watching my stability fall apart
Highlighting my imperfections as a work of art
I just don’t think I can make things work like they did before
This comatose state won’t be ignored
I’m sorry you were so lost and empty that hope became a foreign phrase
But I won’t forget you for the rest of my days
I never knew how much hate a heart could hold
A constant obsession with death and depression marked you astray
Took you away but I still feel your loneliness like everyday in the worst way
I’m drowning in the thoughts and the memories
I’m sinking in your absence, in your passing
On your death bed
You left your final words and they read
My world’s become an empty place
Void of comfort I felt death’s embrace
With open arms I fell back
I want to see the black