You Can't Come Home the Same

I don’t want to you to remember
my face or name
I just want to scream alone and know
you all felt the same
but paint your own picture
and say what you will
it never matters what I say
it never matters how I feel
I hope you’re not like me
desperate to leave
like when I smashed a mirror
to watch myself break & disappear
whether concrete or sheets
just lay me to sleep
whether a bed or grave
let me live where I lay
whether concrete or sheets
just lay me to sleep
whether a bed or grave
let me live where I lay
we fall
as we slowly lose touch with the world
breath in
we fall
as we slowly lose faith in ourselves
breath deeper
point the gun back at yourselves
the blame will be washed away
force fed hopefulness again
it never got better
point the gun back at yourselves
the blame will be washed away
force fed hopefulness again
it never got better
whether concrete or sheets
just lay me to sleep
whether a bed or grave
let me live where I lay
whether concrete or sheets
just lay me to sleep
whether a bed or grave
let me live where I lay
no one will know how hard
i tried to make it easy
for those around me
i kept it to myself
or maybe no one cared to listen
now you can watch me tear myself apart
right before your eyes
dedicated self deprecation
all has left me but life itself