Disfigured

Repulsion of beauty drove me to hunt
A frenzy of self hate possessing me
Violated their bodies, stripped of their pride
Tortured and twisted until they have died
Hatred inside is all I would find
I despise what I see in the mirror
Sadistic hateful scum
I kill them but it’s myself I hate
Now I’ll do myself too
A straight razor will reshape my face
First my ears then my nose
Blood is gushing continue to carve
Erase the face I hate
Now I’m hacking at my chst
A frenzy of self hate possssed me
Controls my actions, controls my thoughts
As I scrape away at my skin
I fill my tub, with alcohol
I plunge into the burning pool
The pain intense, my whole body
Is drenched in scalding liquid
Despite my pain I am able
To grab a lighter on the counter
The flint ignites, the flames erupt
I’m consumed in the inferno
Cauterize, my skin is charred
Regenerate, more loathsome than before