Lurker

Once a child of God
Now judge of the living
My memory is slow and distorted
Regrets of how this came to pass
The shadow of your smile
Will color my dreams
Laying here
Frozen and alone
Never blinking an eye
A beam of light
Leads to the next world
A closed door
Empties a head
Pain, death rattles, blackened kiss, pounding heart
Back and forth we pace
Pain won’t come if you keep quiet
Sentenced to life
My body becomes a cross
Dear sister, dead daughter, my friend
Goodbye
The shadow of your smile when you are gone
Will color my dreams and light the dawn
Sentenced to life
No chance of death