Something Else

Sitting in my bedroom laying in the dark with the nightlight on
Sinking into my head, feeling so small, feeling so alone
I don’t wanna bother anyone
I don’t wanna burden them with all my thoughts
It’s just not fair, I’m out of touch
My mindset’s toxic
I’m losing my shit
Why do I always feel like
I’m lost in thought, taking shots at myself and every mistake
Close my eyes, wait for sunrise so I can start again
Maybe one day I’ll change
Praying one day it will fade
I’m so sick of feeling this numb
Just want to feel something else
Standing at a party take another photo put my smile on
Everyone’s around me why do I feel like I don’t belong
All of these people could care less about me
Empty conversations sometimes I wish I had just stayed home
My mindset’s toxic
I’m losing my shit
Why do I always feel like
I’m lost in thought, taking shots at myself and every mistake
Close my eyes, wait for sunrise so I can start again
Maybe one day I’ll change
Praying one day it will fade
I’m so sick of feeling this numb
Just want to feel something else