Patch

I’m so fucking sick of my body
if it wasn’t for housing my soul
I’d break free from all that confines me
the in-me set free
so far
never once
I’ve never really felt like home
I’m the one in the dark
the one you know but know nothing of
Why am I always wrong why don’t belong
Am I always wrong do I want to belong
Decide
Everything at a comfortable distance
but close enough for some sense of control
born alone I die alone
The numbing fear of being deserted
make me wanna leave before you
everyone new are nothing but burdens
act like a wolf but I really need to
stop acting like a fucking animal
the same sane patch
can barely hold it together
the way you know me won’t last forever
Avoid it all
fail to control
gone is the love
will not go on
this is
wrong
decide
wrong
belong